just the way you are

i get drunk, i get high, i cry and make a scene
i kiss the wrong people and fuck the wrong people, at the wrong time
i stalk my exes, i still think my son's gonna have his last name
i drink alone, sleep a lot, listen to sad songs when i'm sad to get sadder
i say more than i should and then forget about it
i panic over almost anything, i talk to myself in public and at loud
i imagine conversations in my head and then get mad at people over what i imagined they said
i'm the girl who takes a cab at 3 in the morning to go to the house of a boy i don't even like
i imagine getting even with what i'm scared he may do is gonna make me feel better
i'm rude to people i don't like, i'm easy because i don't like to play hard to get
i date guys who resamble my dad, and complain about it
i'm the girl who's crying at the bus stop at 6 in the morning
i'm friends with all my ex and date all my friends
i go for my boyfriend's best friends every time, it's just irresistable
i like broken girls, the ones that get drunk and cry and dance and fuck their best friend
(yep, i do know that's what i do)
i can't stand other women when i go out, i want all the atention for myself
i can't go anywhere whitout running into someone i really shouldn't run into
i'm dying for those fuzzy handcuffs, and would probably use them whit anyone but my boy
i'm always on a "it's really hard to explain" or a "it's a long story" relationship
i dream about getting chances, and refuse them when they fall from the sky
i always get an "oh no, what did you do?" for an answer
i can't keep a haircut for over a month, i always wound up feeling like a whore
i never have anything to wear no matter how many clothes i buy
i can't handle competition, i just give up
i want an adult relationship, but i would just fuck it up (again)

nothing's more fun than making a mess.

and i just love that about me.

just something about mary

you know those girls who are just so fucking cute you just can't say no to them?
i mean, you know nothing good is going to get out of that, but she's looking at you with those eyes and we just fall for it, like the suckers we are.
it's like in this movie, this girls is being stalked by about 5 different guys.
and everyone who meets her falls in love with her.
we all know a mary. fuck, i know i do. you just know she's going to let you down again, but you see her waiting there for you and all you can think about is god she's beautiful.
it's funny cause we see that and they seem so.. flawless.
but they all have big self esteem issues and in the end are just a complete mess.
but don't be fooled... once you see the mess at it's worst.. they get vulnerable.
and broken. and i looove a fucked up girl.

and worst of all, you never call me when you say you will! but i love you still i need you! more than anyone darling, you know that i have from the start.. so fill me up! come on hon, don't break my heart...

worst possible scenario.

Three people are walking down the street at about 5 in the morning. A fourth person is there too, walking towards an apartament building from across the street.
In the first group there are two girls and a boy, one of the girls is clearly very high and the other two are sort off carrying her and keeping her awake.
The boy from across the street gets to his front door, and looks at the group who are walking away from him. He recognizes the very high girl, stays in shock for a few seconds and shouts a name. The girl who was carrying her friend turns her head, and looks terrified. She tells the boy to hurry up. The other boy keeps shouting the name. Suddenly the very high girl reacts. She ask her friends what's going on, they say nothing but she said she heard someone call her name. They tell her she's crazy and laugh, but she won't keep walking. She looks terrified and screams what the hell happened?! Then she stops, opens her mouth and begins to cry. She falls on the floor.
The boy is still in his front door. He is standing there and looks at the scene horrified and somewhat disgusted. He's paralysed.
The girl keeps crying, and screaming out loud, like she was being torn apart with pain. The boy next to her takes her in her arms and starts walking, while she keeps crying. The other girl walks towards the boy standing there.

- This, this is all you. All because of you. She's a mess. And I'm just trying to keep her from dying. So you stay the fuck away from her, or I swear I'll kill you.

She's got tears in her eyes. He just stands there.

almost famous.

you know that moment
when you're watching your boyfriend's favorite movie with him
and the last frame fades to black and the credits start rolling.
it's just magic.
then you smile and look at him
and you bend over to kiss him.
it's a perfect moment.


musicalization: led zeppelin - tangerine